Okay. WELL, I think you're hot and that counts for a lot

Ginger be feedin' me lines! Gah!

texts from right now:

d./v. = me

Ginger=apw=him

d./v. So did you win the fight? I've got money on you winning.

apw Yeah i won the fight

d./v. Hot.

apw Thank you :) i happen to think you wearing a suit and buying a house is hot

d./v. lol. I'm actually pretty badass. I just have to make it all look socially acceptable on the surface.

apw :) i happen to like you

d./v. Yeahhh well think about what I said the other night, because though I'm very attracted to you, what I know of you makes me apprehensive.

(What I said the other night: re: his 'liking' me: "I don't understand it, for one, but no need to get existential. My initial impression of you is of a player; based on your actions that first night with me and then the redhead girl; and I'm curious about the conversation you shared with the guys following." Basically, first time I met him, he was super drunk, totally up in my shit, I liked it; I 'broke the ice,' if you know what I mean. I had to leave party because my cockblocking friend was pissy that she wasn't getting any attention. As I was saying goodbye to the hosts of the party, who happened to be BS and others, apw starts making out with this other redheaded chick; makingout hardcore, like BLOCKING THE EXIT HARDCORE MAKINGOUT. Then, the next day, I hear from BS and the other guys/hosts of that party that apw mentioned that I was touching his apw. Not cool, not cool, I don't think anyone saw/knew, so who the fuck said something, Oh, I'm guessing it was apw himself. I didn't get all the details, but basically, BS told me that after I left, the redhead girl left, which left apw alone and asking about me. He wanted someone to hookup with, I'm guessing. Anyhow, I have NO IDEA what was said btwn the guys, but BS was texting me that night during the boychat, and said, "the big redheaded guy [apw] wants you, should i send him over?".....then, "Oh no no I'm not picking on you I'm just saying you weren't going to hookup with him, right?" (actually, this convo carried on btwn BS and I into sort of cute/flirty, BUT anyway).)

apw I will, i'm really not as bad as you think :)

d./v. I'm not so concerned about you being 'bad' as I am about you being real. Real is important.

apw I understand what you mean.

d./v. And if you don't that's fine. We can figure it out. Or not. Everything is chill. You're fucking great. I'm totally awesome. And for now, it is what it is.

apw I want to figure it out, cause i really like you; you are awesome and i'd think we would be great :)

d./v. Okay. I think you're hot and that counts for a lot.

apw Well i'm glad you think the same as i do :)

d./v. I've got to go embalm. Get some rest.

WHAT THE SHIT LADIES. COMMENTS PLEASE. POSTING IN HASTE BECAUSE L.LO IS GOING TO BED.

P.S. Also, it should be said that BS and apw are boys I actually met first in the real world.

P.P.S. Am I ruining the concept of all ya'lls blog by posting about my WHOLE (slutty) life?